Eyelid surgery after wound from fake eyelashes?
I saw an eye doctor who diagnosed me with EKC, and said it was nearly healed and I should just use eyedrops and let it heal. I went back a few weeks later, and the infection had completely healed yet the eyelid change was obviously permanent. I asked if the change was permanent, and he said he could barely see a difference between my eyes. He also said to not even consider surgery, as it would only make things worse.
I went to a private doctor who at least told me she saw a difference, and referred me to a nearby eyelid specialist. After months of slowly realizing this was a permanent problem, I was holding my breath for any kind of good news from the surgeon -- even just the remote possibility that I could get it back the way it was, even slightly. She told me the same thing I'd already heard from everyone, that surgery would only things make things worse, and the problem was "so slight" that it shouldn't matter. She said if I was a family member of hers, she would not want to operate.
Please understand. I'm not a 50 year old woman with a slight ptosis from age, who's already had her young and beautiful days. I'm not an asian girl who's always had eyelid issues. I'm not someone who was "born with this and never noticed it," something the eyelid surgeon suggested that brought me to tears. She told me to look through old photos, as though I don't know what I looked like before! My eyes used to be my favorite thing about myself. People stopped me to tell me I had pretty eyes because they actually opened very wide and were quite symmetrical. I'm a 21 year old girl who has barely hit adulthood and feels all her beauty was taken away in one stupid night from something I had no idea was even possible. No one even wants to consider operating on me because I'm so young, but that's precisely why I want surgery - I have to go the rest (entirety) of my adult life this way?
I used to wear liquid eyeliner on my upper lids all the time, and it was one of my favorite things. Now there is such a huge gap between my lash line and my lid crease on one eye that not only is the shine never showing in one eye, but the eyeliner never looks symmetrical. Putting on makeup brings me to tears every single morning, because now I have to work to make my eyes look symmetrical, which I never used to do. Makeup isn't about looking pretty anymore, it's just a tool to make me look less like I've been beaten or drunk.
The 2 worst things about this, besides it existing in the first place, is people either telling me they "barely see it" or telling me I'm being petty, ridiculous, vain or immature for caring about it. It seems it's just bad enough that it has ruined my life, and yet not quite bad enough for anyone to operate on me.
If nothing else, please, someone, tell me that this is something that can be changed. Please tell me someone can do something. Even just acknowledging that it is a problem would save me a lifetime of therapy. I've included photos -- I am not exaggerating the position of my eyelids at all. This is how they look now -- the crease has changed and the lid is lower.